Aha Moment

Saturday was my day to have one of those rare Ah-Ha moments - you know when your intellectual mind, emotional being and physical body all come to an agreement at the same time about an idea or problem. It is that "thing" you've struggled with in your mind that's causing conflicting emotions and you get all stressed out when you've think about it. Then "wham" all of a sudden you "get it". You have an overwhelming feeling of good emotions that gives you a sense of relief and happiness, or perhaps resolution. For me, it was all three at the same time: relief, happiness and resolution.


My Ah-Ha moment on Saturday went something like this....I don't like to have my picture taken (those of you who know me well aren't surprised by this) and I don't like to look in a mirror more than I have to. Well, I was looking in a mirror Saturday and looking at more than my face. Trust me, it wasn't a pretty reflection. I was staring at myself when I realized how much I didn't like what was looking back at me. And, there it was, my "Ah-Ha Moment". Avoiding or creating excuses for not taking care of what was making me so unhappy hit me. I don't have to live like this, I can change what is making me unhappy. Wow, what a sense of relief, but also resolution. Why all of a sudden it happened, I can't explain. I've only had this happen one other time about 9 years ago while I was out on a bike path. Again, it was one of those moments where everything fell into place with tremendous clarity and perception.



I have already started changing what is making me unhappy with me. Soon I'll be able to look in a mirror and like that person looking back at me. Ah-Ha moments haven't occurred very often for me, but boy when they do they are life-changing.