Relationships

I am so disgusted and irritated with people that say one thing, but their actions speak another. I'm finding this to be true with family and friends. I'm trying to find, in my heart, that spot where grace lives, pull it out and give it to those who need it. It is becoming exceedingly difficult to do this. There are current family situations that grace is slowly coming forth. But, it's the friends that you reach out to that don't respond that are leaving me hurt, angry and discouraged. Non-response says to me "I'm not interested, I don't care about a relationship with you." When do you decide to give-up and let the relationship die a peaceful death? I don't know the answer to that, but I think I'm real close to finding one.

Sunday we went to visit some friends whose daughter was in the hospital. They had no idea we were coming. They talked about how blessed they were that we had taken the time and driven 2 1/2 hours to just say hello, pray a hedge of protection around all of them, especially their daughter, and to let them know they are loved. Our intent was to bless them, but we were truly blessed by the gratitude we received from them.

So from that type of reaction and feeling of love I go to the opposite where you're ignored no matter how many times or how hard you try to reach out. As I'm writing this, I'm realizing this is my issue....and I have STUPID written across my forehead.....now is time to put issues to rest, let God be in control and his path be the one I walk down and just stop trying.

I thank the Lord for all of the friends that I have that I talk to once a day, once a week or once a month. These are the friends that I know genuinely care about me and me about them. When I started writing this, I wasn't sure what I wanted/needed or where to go with my feelings. Now I know, give it a rest, relinquish my controlling nature and follow where God leads.